Where is God?

Where is God in Suffering? This I don’t understand.

I write about the Love of Jesus Christ to my readers. But I struggle with suffering.

My pastor said that suffering is the consequence of sin. Is this true? Why does God accept it -SUFFERING?

My Pastor asked me a question. He said, “What is more painful, physical pain or pain of the heart?”

My response was quick, I said “Pain of the Heart.”  You can’t escape it. There is no cure!

The pain that comes with heartache is like a door slamming shut on your soul and smashing it into a thousand tiny pieces.

I’m HUMAN. I’m not perfect in any way. So why do we expect perfection?

I have high standards. Very high standards. I don’t like liars nor do I like adulterers. They make me mad.

I lied once or twice as a child. I don’t know why.  I got used to lying and kept doing it. I’ve repented of that now but the Devil keeps reminding me of this sin.

Who am I? Am I a Christian, or a lost Woman seeking vengeance against men?

Jesus said He is the Way the Truth and the LIFE. I believe Him. He’s the only man I trust. He will never let me down. He disciplines me but He disciplines from a place of LOVE.

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I think about DEATH and I think about suffering. I don’t know why. I just do.

I get anxious in storms and wet weather when it is going to FLOOD. I don’t know why, I just do.

JESUS is my LIFE. He promises to take care of me. He won’t leave me. He won’t leave. He won’t leave me.


Sometimes I wish I was NORMAL. But I’m not. I’m different. And it’s ok to be different.

Jesus was different. He was unique. Maybe that’s why people hated HIM so much.

Jesus got anxiety. That’s why he said this scripture to remind himself and others. “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down, but an encouraging word makes it glad”  (Proverbs 12:25)

Jeremiah was  prophet. Why is that a big deal? My pastor knows all about Prophets. He’s quite well read when it comes to the BIBLE.

How do Pastors resist temptation? They must come across it a lot. How do they fight the enemy every.single.day.

Pastors must suffer. They must hear and see a lot of suffering. But TRUST GOD. He hears everything.

God said “Vengeance is mine.” (Deutoronomy 32:35) I believe HIM. When God talks, I shut up and Listen.


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